Rosa Hultman1Emerald Heart Elder and Teacher, Rosa Hultman, shares with us  further realisations she received after her recent Christmas Message was published.             

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Since the Christmas message came forth I have encountered longing; longing on such a level that there has been times I have been thinking I was going to die from this pain of missing something.

This longing has pulled me deeper and deeper into my own heart. It has been like a magnet pulling on my consciousness and eventually this process of extreme but still sweet pain brought me to a point of deep acknowledgement of something so ancient, something so profound and something so very much part of my own intimate nature as a woman. 

It was during one situation of deep, deep feelings of longing, that I had the most fascinating vision, where I looked into my heart and my heart was nothing but a beautiful Mary with Jesus in the womb. It took me some time to align with the Light and energy of this experience and there was no message and no words spoken, yet something was said on such a deep level, heard by every cell in my body and it was something of a deep recollection. In an attempt to give a hint of what was transmitted I have tried to find words within my heart to express this inner knowing.

This sacred longing is a feminine quality and it belongs to the very nature of the soul, as the nature of the soul is always feminine before God. Like everything that is created, love has a dual nature; positive –negative, masculine – feminine, and the masculine side of love is “I love you” while the feminine side of Love  is: I am longing for you; “I am waiting for you; I am the cup waiting to be filled.”  In the innermost chamber of the heart we look toward God and this inner feminine attitude of the heart is revealed – the longing and the devotion.

This is nothing but a bare naked heart, receptive and attentive, in need of God’s nourishment. The sacred longing of the heart is but a memory of a love affair of essence to essence that was born before the beginning of time, yet it is the heart’s wisdom and knowledge that somewhere we are united with God. The sweet subtle but yet powerful and intense pain is caused by our separation from God. 

Acknowledging this deep inner longing and opening up for this wisdom of the heart and this ancient inner knowing was a relief. All my life I have been driven by a sense of not being content, always looking further, for something else, something better, something slightly different and I have not been able to find out why I am like this. I have even at times thought of it as an abnormality or some kind of psychological problem. To realize that those feelings belong to a homesick and heartbroken soul looking for the way home and for its true love, gave me peace. I also see how this longing has brought me to where I am at right now. It has truly been, and still is a magnet pulling me towards the truth of my heart. 

I have also realized how women have a natural way for doing this work, because we are born with, and we know the wisdom of, receptivity; of holding a sacred space. I have experienced this in my physical body, through the wonder of pregnancy even if it is many years ago and now. I have experienced how the sacred feminine knows how this all works within the soul. I have felt how the heart is always awake, waiting, longing…

Rosa Hultman,

Elder of The Emerald Heart

27th December 2013, Sweden.