The beliefs we have about ourselves shape who we are and how we function in the world.
Lynne Shaw shares a negative belief she created about herself at a young age and the journey she has been taking to release it.
Throughout my life, but particularly from my adolescence on, I believed that there was something wrong with me, that some part of me was deeply flawed.
Without realizing it, the belief and words “There must be something wrong with me”, became my personal mantra that looped round in my mind. It became my rationalization for everything that happened to me.
This belief was so insidious; it penetrated every aspect of my life, and being.
Where Did This Belief Come From?
This belief was originally a coping mechanism. I was an incredibly sensitive child who really did not understand how people functioned. I did not understand the games of power, control and manipulation that are so prevalent in our society. (As most children don’t.) I particularly did not understand how people could be so cruel to each other.
When I was younger, the shock of some experiences and encounters were just too much for me, so I developed this belief as a coping mechanism.
I Distanced Myself From Feeling
In order to distance myself from feeling the feelings around a particular incident because it was so heartbreaking to me, it seemed easier to blame myself. (It seems crazy, but in my child’s mind it all made sense.) I could say that this experience had happened to me because there is something wrong with me, not because there was an issue with the perpetrator, but with me. It was also a way of coping with the fact that even if I explained what had happened, I was not believed. So in a way, this coping mechanism got everyone off the hook. Except me.
I Destroyed My Sense of Self
By denying myself the opportunity to experience my feelings about an incident and see the truth in an experience, by blaming myself, I destroyed my sense of self and belief in myself.
Of course it also rocked my confidence in myself too.
It is heartbreaking to see that this was the strategy I developed as a child and carried into adulthood, as it has been so deeply damaging to me. Yet the Light of the Emerald Heart reveals the truth and once it has been uncovered it is possible to emancipate yourself from the thoughts and behaviours that we create that do not serve us.
How The Emerald Heart Light Supports My Healing Journey
Fortunately I walk a spiritual path with the Emerald Heart that has tools to help me evolve, heal and renew. I take Emerald Heart essences, Keys of Liquid Light, to gain a deeper acceptance of my feelings and myself. I self-heal through Divine Plan Healing sessions to release the thought pattern and regret that I feel at denying my truth for all these years. If I get stuck or need more support, or Guidance, then I make an appointment with my Emerald Heart Practitioner to move forward through this. I am so grateful to have these resources to help me uncover this belief and to free myself from this.
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I wish you joy and freedom in releasing the beliefs that no longer serve you too.
Many blessings!
Lynne Shaw
Elder of The Emerald Heart School of Enlightenment
New York, USA
There is much to learn from our parents. Love and the self. it is all about you. It is what you make about it. Lovexxxxx
I presently go through a difficult phase in my life and have exactly the same feelings and thoughts as described by Lynne. My work at an insurance company becomes more and more unbearable, I cannot understand my colleagues, what makes them laugh is annoying me, I feel like living on another planet. thankfully I have found an Emerald Heart Practitioner very near and can get some healing help. My experience with the essences are absolutely positive and they are recommendable.
Dearest Claudine,
Thank you so much for having the courage to share this challenging phase that you are going through.
I’m so glad you have found the support you need to dissolve this issue.
Many blessings on your journey to greater grace and ease!